Friday, July 17, 2009

A Few Random Bitchy Things About Facebook

1. Stop trying to get me to friend your pet, blog and/or business. It's my FRIENDS list, people. And I am not friends with your snotty nosed cat or your blog about toe jam. Seriously. Make a page, I'll fan it. But stop signing up for random accounts like your business is a person. If it was YOU WOULDN'T FUCKING OWN IT!


2. Your high school nickname? Not cool. Bewbs Johnson? Probably not going to be friending her. Kathy Johnson on the other hand, who happens to mention her stupid high school nickname in her profile... it could happen. Be a human, with a normal ass name. It's okay. It's 2009. Robots are not taking over the world just yet. You don't have to deny your species for safety.

3. Stop putting up pictures of your children as your profile image. Ditto pictures of your cat. And your dog. And your horse. And your car. You are not your children (or your cat, dog, horse or car). They are their own entities and they like it that way. Try it sometime. Be your own person. WITH YOUR OWN PICTURE. Or don't. Chances are if you're that attached I don't want to be your friend anyway.


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Sunday, July 12, 2009

And It Will Suck; My Only BlogHer 09 Fear

Tis the season.


Halls across the country are decked. (With clothes thrown astray in pre-packing jitters)

People are kissing. (Mostly on twitter, not under a mistletoe. And mostly asses, not lips. You know, in hopes of making new friends before the big arrival day comes lest they be left travelling the streets of Blogger-filled Chicago alone. But it works.)

BlogHer '09 is right around the corner. Excitement, expectations and anxiety are all high in both the blog and twitter-spheres.

People are worried about what to wear, how to do their hair, whether or not they'll fit in, what sessions and parties and meet-ups they'll attend. And while many, many of those I've seen tweeting and blogging about these fears are new to BlogHer, I'm here to tell you the anxiety doesn't disappear entirely on your second go-around - it just takes a new form.

Last year I was a wreck. Did I have the right clothes to wear? Did my 'do look alright? Would I make an ass out of myself more than usual? Would I have anyone to talk to or would I end up wandering the halls aimless and alone?

This year. I can honestly say I'm not worried about it. Any of it. I still haven't even thought about what I'm wearing. I leave on the 23rd, figure I'll shop on the 22nd. I know that BlogHers really are very welcoming and I'll have no problem finding someone to talk to, hang out with, drink with, sleep with, eat with - even if I walk into a party or session alone. My hair is a mess, as usual, but I also know no one is actually going to be looking at it. And honestly? We all make asses out of ourselves. People seemed to like me best when I was myself -- like when I wrote cuss words on my name tag at Guy's house. They loved the assholeishness of it all. And I loved them for it. (Also, yes, Guy Kawasaki and I are on a first name basis - he's just not aware of it yet.)

No, I am not worried about any of that this year. No, there is just one thing I am worried about this year. And while I guess it does have a little bit to do with making an ass out of myself, it's not about just that anymore. I am worried that I was not memorable enough. (Because I wasn't memorable AT ALL, perhaps.) And that people who I met and spent time with last year will not remember me.

So, I imagine when I go skipping up to them all jolly and gay they'll not know who the fuck I am. They'll just nod and glance at each other sideways all "Who the shit is this chick?" and then they'll walk away. And I'll be all "What a bunch of bitches!" And they'll be all "What did you say?" And I'll be "Hitches. Are any of the vendors giving away free hitches? I totes need one. A hitch. Not a bitch."

And they won't believe me.

And it will suck.

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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

I Get a Little Pleasure From Other Peoples' Pain

Completely without rabbit food, you know because it is really hard to see that it's getting low before we run out entirely, and in dire need - no really, NEED - of coke to mix with my Captain Morgan we ventured out this evening after The Knight got home from work. While out, in the soft drink aisle of the nearest evil-mart, we stepped through a time warp and ran smack into an earlier version of ourselves.


She was adorable in her black capris and striped, fitted tee. He was staring at her ass and almost knocked over an entire display of 7-up with the cart. His tennis shoes cost half as much as the payment for his shiny truck I rest assured was parked somewhere outside, freshly waxed. Her pedicure included tiny hand painted flowers on her big toe. And no, that wasn't a WNBA basketball under her shirt. Her pregnant belly was sickeningly, perfectly round and yes, cute.

And the best part was? They were completely unsuspecting.

Their faces were so innocent. So naive. You could tell she'd read one too many of those fluff-and-stuff parenting magazines that will have her doing postnatal yoga and baking fresh bread four hours after giving birth. And he was clearly just along for the ride. I imagine he had read a few of those articles but gotten overwhelmed at the one about achieving the perfect 'latch on' and given up. He's trusting she knows what she's doing and that it'll all just come to them. He was especially cute. *sigh*

So I stealthily attached a tracking device to their ankles like the ones scientists use on birds. I can't wait to track them down three months from now at 3 am when their new baby has shit up his own back, down his thighs, and has them on night four of a seven day, no-sleep, bender.

New parents are fun.

Mostly because I am never, ever doing that again. Ever. And the two heathens on my own side of the aisle who were meanwhile arguing over who would get to feed the rabbit it's first carrot crunchy when we got home were testament as to why.

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Monday, July 06, 2009

I Don't Make Them Be Nice

I'm fully aware that it may only be my perspective of the world that sees this spectrum as so, but I think there exists a grey area between nice and mean. And when you don't have anything nice to say, it is okay to say something that's just not mean. Something that is grey. Or even not say anything at all.


It's a well-accepted tradition that friends of family members are more than welcome to our gatherings at the lake. It's not uncommon to see entire families that you've never met before fishing from the pontoon boat, jumping off the zip-line and helping themselves to smoked pork sandwiches. This past weekend was no different.

Our immediate family - aunts, uncles and cousins - all were there, joined by some extended family and even some friends. One of those friends was a husband and wife duo with their eight-year-old daughter. The husband was a nice guy, the wife a bit quiet from what I could tell, and the daughter? She was an asshole. No that is not a typo. She was a complete and utter asshole. An ungrateful, ill-mannered, confrontation-seeking asshole.

She was rude, argumentative, unsupervised, and made-up like a two-cent hooker. That is not an exaggeration. The kid had enough lip-liner and lipstick on to polish up every whore on the Vegas Strip for a week. It didn't even come off during her two-hour long swim in the lake (during which her mother spent all of five minutes watching her - because we ARE free-babysitters, you know, but that's another story for another day)

And yes I do realize none of this is her fault. It is all a salute to an EPIC failure in parenting. I understand that.

What I do not understand is the predominant notion that we need to be, we MUST BE, nice to people, even if they are children, like these.

Because there is a grey area between nice and mean, no? There is being neutral. Not nice, but not downright mean either. There is ignoring. There is respectfully, but clearly communicating that no you do not want to play a game, or make a craft, or talk to, or be friends with a person. And none of that is nice, but it's not mean either. And it's okay. And it's what I teach my children.

Because lets face it, as much as it is not the child's fault she must learn. She must learn that being an asshole will get you nothing in the long-run of life. She must learn that arguing with the gracious hostess you were dumped on about how you can swim in forty-feet of water without a life jacket at the age of eight will get you out of the lake completely. That demanding marshmallows and more sparklers when others are asking for them nicely will get you placed swiftly at the back of the line. She must learn that walking into a band of kids who have known each others personalities, quirks, thoughts, ideas, families, and preferences since the day they were born on their turf and trying to stage a coup will only get you a spot on the outside looking in. And lets face it, we can't wait for the parental unit that made her that way to teach it. Because if they were going to, one would think they would have taken the opportunity at some point in the past eight years, no?

So I teach my children to utilize the grey area; the beautiful thing that it is. I teach them to be straight forward. Not to sugar-coat. If they don't want to be someones friend because that someone is mean? I teach them to say so. And they do. And it sometimes pisses other parents off. And you know what else, I don't care. Because their kids are assholes, and at least I didn't teach mine to say that. Because they know it, make no mistake. But they also know the grey area. And they use it. And here's the thing, if you don't like it, don't raise an asshole. Because someday, I'll also teach them when it is okay to be mean.


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Thursday, July 02, 2009

'Why There Are Guns in My House' Redux for the Fourth

You haven't heard? I'm someplace rustic, vacationing and calculating my prime amount of availability on an abacus. No, really. In the meantime, I've revived an old OPP favorite for your enjoyment - it's July Fourth-ish in that it has to do with our rights as Americans. Or something like that.


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Why There Are Guns in My House, Originally Published August 15, 2008



Recently Izzy of IzzyMom fame and glory posed the question:

I’m curious to know where I stand in comparison to other Americans as well as other world citizens, parents and non-parents, I’d like to know your views on gun control and the second amendment.


Aside from that fact that they're essential pieces of equipment for, you know, hunting. Which we do, a lot. There is a deeper reason that we keep guns in our home, properly stored, unloaded, and safely put up, of course. A reason why I fully support the second amendment, and a citizen's right to bear arms.

Before I go on to explain that reason, I'd like to give props to Izzy's own reasons for supporting the right to bear arms. I think far too often, in our comfy American ways, we forget that governments are corrupt, they do infringe on their citizens, and it is possible that it could happen here, to us.

That being said, I support the second amendment right for our citizens to bear arms for a deeply personal reason. As a child guns were not allowed in our home, despite the fact that my step-father was a hunter. My mother went so far as to demand that his shotgun, the only gun our family owned, be kept in the garage, with a trigger lock, inside it's locked gun case, inside a locked cabinet, behind a locked door. Clearly, there was an unhealthy amount of Fear of God!!! surrounding that gun. Any gun, actually. My step-father kept the gun in the house anyway, inside it's locked case and unloaded, but it still remained a great source of tension and my mom made it clear that GUNS. ARE. EVIL. Evil, dangerous, killing machines. They could fire at any moment, shooting off your toe, or your ear, or your best friend's head. Even if you didn't even have it loaded. I have yet to figure out where this position on guns came from, her having grown up on a farm with four brothers and a father all active in hunting and none having ever been injured in a gun related accident.

As time wore on guns became those things. Foreign, forbidden, dangerous things. So, during an afternoon unsupervised at a friend's house, us in our preteen years at the most, when she mentioned that her parents kept loaded guns positioned around the house for protection, and offered to show them to me, naturally my curiosity peaked. Because kids are curious, especially about things with which they've been forbidden experience. Clearly I am still here today, so we know a horrible accident did not take place that afternoon huddled in her upstairs hallway, crowded around one of the three guns she showed me. But now, as an adult, the image of the barrel of that gun pointing directly into my face is ingrained. At the time, looking down that dark, cool shaft did not scare me. It exhilarated me to the very core. I was scared, yes, a fear of guns had been mentally beaten into me, but that fear only made the experience that much more of a rush. The adrenaline pumped and I stared it down, while tossing it back in forth in my palms. It was an old-style revolver, heavy and cold. I'll never forget it.

About one and a half years later I befriended an older boy, he was in high school, but my mom liked him and he was essentially harmless so I was allowed to befriend him, go shopping with him, "cruise" in his shiny blue truck. One day, in his backyard in the country, he talked about his guns. He was an avid hunter and when I mentioned my fear of them he offered to get his .22 and teach me to shoot. With him in a lawn chair ten feet away directing my every move I shot a gun for the first time that day, but the fear was far from over. With that tiny .22 it was intimidating, but manageable. I couldn't kill a deer with it so I clearly couldn't kill myself, right? Wrong, of course, I realize that now, but at the time it made it all manageable in my mind and I shot. He taught me how to carry it, how to load it, how to aim it, and yes, how to shoot it. I was actually a damned good aim, the first thing I had ever found that I was just good at.

Later though, when another friend placed a 12 gauge, a big, heavy, long barreled 12 gauge in my hands and directed me to shoot towards the open field, I shook and when he gently wrapped his arms around me and then my finger around the trigger I started to cry. I do not cry. The reasons for that are numerous, but suffice to say I am not a crier. But that day, I did. I was so scared of the trigger. I was so scared that the bullet would fly out the backside, or flip into a circle, or bounce off the tree I was aiming at and thwack me right between the eyes. I cried, and shook. And finally looking towards that long, open field through my tear blurred vision I squeezed, as slowly as I could, the trigger. The gun barely kicked, though I had been squeezing it into my shoulder so tightly I'd left a little mark, and just like the booming waves of sound coming from its barrel fear radiated from my body. I felt it spill from every pore and I started to laugh. First as a giggle but it was a giggle that grew until, finally, I was bending over and laughing so hysterically I couldn't stand straight. The release was the most amazing thing I'd ever felt. I was freed. I was also hooked and I shot over and over again until every last bullet we had that day was gone.

Standing on the edge of a field that cold, fall day shooting at trees I learned to respect the gun but not to fear it. I learned that the gun is not that which is evil. I learned what was dangerous about guns was my own misunderstanding and lack of knowledge. But most of all I learned, that no one should have to go through what I went through in order to figure all of that out. And for that reason I believe citizens should have the right to bear arms. I believe that American homes should be healthy environments for learning about firearms, and that cannot happen without firearms present.

There are guns in our home, several of them, actually. They're unloaded and locked in their cases appropriately. They are brought out on lazy evenings and long weekend afternoons. They're used for hunting and target shooting. They're used for recreation, but also for education. One of those guns belongs to my daughter, who is less than a week shy of seven today. She does not fear her gun, or my gun, or her father's gun but she does respect them. She knows how to properly carry it, load it, and shoot it. She knows the dangers that it can present but also knows that she is the first line of defense in preventing them. She knows what a gun is capable of, she sits with us yearly during deer season, and has both seen and eaten the product of a bullet shot.

I do not fear that she will harm herself or someone else with a gun. I do not worry about the day she will look down its barrel, because for her a gun is not a thing. It is not mythical or forbidden or dangerous, though she knows it can be. A gun is powerful, but also familiar. It is an object with which she knows how to act, it is a possession that she respects. Every child should be afforded that privilege. The privilege of knowledge and experience. The privilege of not being left to take learning into their own hands, where it can, too often, go wrong.

I am not opposed to simple safeguards to ensure the wrong guns do not get into the wrong hands. I've personally purchased all of the guns that we now own and each time I've happily filled out the forms needed, waited while my background check was processed, and taken all precautions required in transporting them home. Those things I am not opposed to, what I am opposed to are restrictions that put the right to bear arms for everyday American families, families like mine, who desire to teach their children safe, respectful, cautious firearm use, at risk. I am opposed to making guns, on a mass scale, things; forbidden, dangerous things.

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